Monday, August 15, 2005

I know how this movie ends

Denial is not just a river in Egypt.

It is in fact a psychological defense mechanism in which a person faced with a fact that is uncomfortable or painful to accept, rejects it instead, insisting that it is not true DESPITE overwhelming evidence.

I KNOW THIS.

But knowledge and acceptance are two distinctly different notions.

As I see it, first comes denial, then comes knowledge, then you get drawn and quartered by a horse drawn carriage.

And only when one has suffered through the ravages of knowledge for a seemingly interminable amount of time, does a speck of light in the form of acceptance pierce through the dark clouds of despair.

This, too, I KNOW.

But awareness, while helpful in short term rationalization and long term coping, does not cushion the blow when the sweet taste of denial turns to bitter reality.

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